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Separation Sucks

Last fall I fell into a deep depression, some because I am crazy, some because I worked full time but didn't have anyone help with my two beautiful kids.  I had been seeing a psychiatrist for almost a year who prescribed me a new prescription nearly every month to treat my major depressive disorder.  I always considered his professionalism as he nodded and said uh huh to everything I said while slurping a 32 oz fountain drink.  By mid November I completely lost my shit.  I couldn't get out of bed for a 3 day stretch, this was not a normal depressive cycle for me.  I usually am like a roller coaster ride up one day down the next (which is happening again so time for a med check).  What I didn't realize was that during this 3 days of "laying in bed" I was getting up and taking a handful of xanex with a glass of wine and going back, and then repeated this until I had taken 92 xanex and drank a full box of wine... the 5 bottle box, not 3. My husband would per...