Self Shaming
As if it's not bad enough to be bipolar and fight the highs and lows I also have to deal with a lot of guilt feelings and self shaming about many things I do, don't do or say. I've been so low lately that I asked my husband for the first time in the last year to keep the kids my days this week. I didn't give any reason just asked and he said ok. I have been so down and I'm so broke that I thought it would be better for them to stay with him this week and even though we have a 50/50 agreement it's more 70/30 me having them the majority of the time. I love being a mom, it's all I ever wanted in life, so now I'm self shaming and judging myself, riddled with guilt for having their dad step it up and take care of them in my time of need. I should be happy that he didn't ask why because if I had to answer I think that being selfish is what I would have to say and that isn't something I am used to. It hurts that he doesn't care if I am ok or ...