Sometimes Plans Fail
I had one of my meds increased last week and I have been feeling much more stable. So far this week has been pretty smooth as far as my mood swings go. Until yesterday, but there was a reason so I still think I overall was doing well mentally. It was my sons 4th birthday party and we had rented a venue to have the party, he woke up at 6:30AM and began throwing up non stop. Finally at 9:30AM after talking with my husband we made the call to cancel the party. I was bawling, I had put so much work into the party I was so disappointed and couldn't control my crying. My son continued to throw up until I took him to the ER at 1:00PM. They had to give him fluids through and IV and Zofran to stop the vomiting. At this point I then felt like a total selfish asshole for even thinking cancelling a party was a big deal. It's crazy how I can lose my shit over plans failing but I'm calm cool and collected when it comes to the serious stuff. Mom mode...