Unwanted and Alone
Today started out as an up day, had the day off, had the kids. They played outside, we went to a couple of parks. There was an afternoon filled with monkey bars, slides, an obstacle course and a splash pad. Watching the kids run and laugh was so heartwarming. When we got home we snuggled on the couch and talked, my husband was coming to get them soon. The low started the moment they left. My heart sunk. The tears came about 15 minutes later. I was alone. I was unwanted. My kids and my husband left with smiles and here I am, beginning a depressive cycle. I always have ups and downs, but it's much worse shuffling the kids back and forth and having my husband behave as if it's business as usual. Even if we did work things out eventually, I would have to be able to mask my ups and downs. The only friends I had were his friends so along with him when I had my breakdown they abandoned me too. Some of them even went as...