Everything Just Pisses Me Off
I had a fantastic day yesterday. It's the first day I can remember in a long time that was just great from start to finish. I woke up around 4:30 AM - that seems to be the norm since my psychiatrist increased my Abilify a week or so ago. It doesn't seem to matter if I go to bed at 10 PM or 2 AM I am UP at 4:00 to 4:30 AM every morning and can't go back to bed. Besides that, everything was great. I was in a good mood, I had my coffee before the kids got up and got to check my emails and what is going on in the world of Facebook and Twitter. When they did get up, I made them breakfast, my daughter had a soccer game, scored a goal and won 8-0. We came home and watched Captain Underpants on pay per view, lounged around and had taco's for dinner (the kids favorite).
We finally got up and around and moved all of our crafting things, Scrapbooking stuff, slime, paints and an array of other things to the new room in the basement I put together for said things so it's no longer on the dining room table. We made everything, painted rocks, glitter slime, drew pictures and I even completed a small scrapbook. We worked on stuff until we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer. We all decided it was time to crawl in bed. There was the nightly argument over who got to sleep next to mom (yes I know they shouldn't still sleep in my bed like they do but I love the snuggles). I can't lay in the middle because one I need to have one foot out of the covers and two I have to have covers, the kids always end up on top of the covers and trap me under and then have an anxiety attack and feel like my chest is going to collapse. So last night my daughter let my son lay next to me, and when he fell asleep she wiggles herself between he and I to get her spot next to me.
So .... Today I was up at 4:00 AM wired, wide awake so I crawled out of bed trying not to wake the littles. I went and made my coffee, over filled the Kiereg (sp) so I had to clean water off of the counter as it ran all over. So pissed! When I went to put the wet paper towels in the garbage I slammed my hip into the counter .... So pissed. Kids got up around 7:00 and so I decided to start changing out the doorknobs I bought 6 months ago and had only put in 2 out of 6 so far. As I start opening the packages I realize these ones didn't match the other ones I had already put in. I decided to let that go and make due with the closet ones and get new ones for the bedroom and bathroom to match the other bedroom knobs. I took off the old one on the pantry and went to put in the new one in. The damn hole for the mechanism to hold the knob is too small, and I don't have a damn drill to make it bigger. Pisses me off! I then move to the other closet door (did I mention none of the old ones were the same color or type?) I got the screws removed but can't get the knob off either side. Pisssed me off.
I decided today is not the day to do home improvements. Moving on. We are meeting my uncle in a little while to have lunch, I needed a shower so let the kids know I was taking one. Well my son (he's 3) loves baths and showers and God forbid if I have one alone, I haven't been able to shave for days. I tried to talk him into waiting until I got out and then getting in.... I could see the tantrum brewing so I caved and let him get in. I'm still sporting legs like a hairy mammoth. I get out, he stays in for the next 15 minutes while I trip over the cats twice because they are always under my feet, I yell at them to get out of the way and finally while I had my head flipped down putting all of my anti frizz products in my hair I scooted them out of the bathroom. When one of them started playing with my hair and scratching my hands like my hair was a cat toy I lost it had a screaming tantrum flipped my head up only to slam it into the open hair product cupboard and nearly knock myself out. EVERYTHING PISSES ME OFF!!
It's just one of those days. I'm not low, but I everything is going wrong no matter how I try to let it go and move on the next thing I do turns a mess as well.
We are off to lunch... Wish me luck I'm a bit afraid of being in traffic or public, hopefully this will be my turn around for the good? The kids have been great and they go with their Dad tomorrow night so I just want to continue our great weekend. Please - whoever that higher power is out there, watch over us and keep us safe.
#everythingpissesmeoff #greatday #pissedoff #kids #cats #failed
We finally got up and around and moved all of our crafting things, Scrapbooking stuff, slime, paints and an array of other things to the new room in the basement I put together for said things so it's no longer on the dining room table. We made everything, painted rocks, glitter slime, drew pictures and I even completed a small scrapbook. We worked on stuff until we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer. We all decided it was time to crawl in bed. There was the nightly argument over who got to sleep next to mom (yes I know they shouldn't still sleep in my bed like they do but I love the snuggles). I can't lay in the middle because one I need to have one foot out of the covers and two I have to have covers, the kids always end up on top of the covers and trap me under and then have an anxiety attack and feel like my chest is going to collapse. So last night my daughter let my son lay next to me, and when he fell asleep she wiggles herself between he and I to get her spot next to me.
So .... Today I was up at 4:00 AM wired, wide awake so I crawled out of bed trying not to wake the littles. I went and made my coffee, over filled the Kiereg (sp) so I had to clean water off of the counter as it ran all over. So pissed! When I went to put the wet paper towels in the garbage I slammed my hip into the counter .... So pissed. Kids got up around 7:00 and so I decided to start changing out the doorknobs I bought 6 months ago and had only put in 2 out of 6 so far. As I start opening the packages I realize these ones didn't match the other ones I had already put in. I decided to let that go and make due with the closet ones and get new ones for the bedroom and bathroom to match the other bedroom knobs. I took off the old one on the pantry and went to put in the new one in. The damn hole for the mechanism to hold the knob is too small, and I don't have a damn drill to make it bigger. Pisses me off! I then move to the other closet door (did I mention none of the old ones were the same color or type?) I got the screws removed but can't get the knob off either side. Pisssed me off.
I decided today is not the day to do home improvements. Moving on. We are meeting my uncle in a little while to have lunch, I needed a shower so let the kids know I was taking one. Well my son (he's 3) loves baths and showers and God forbid if I have one alone, I haven't been able to shave for days. I tried to talk him into waiting until I got out and then getting in.... I could see the tantrum brewing so I caved and let him get in. I'm still sporting legs like a hairy mammoth. I get out, he stays in for the next 15 minutes while I trip over the cats twice because they are always under my feet, I yell at them to get out of the way and finally while I had my head flipped down putting all of my anti frizz products in my hair I scooted them out of the bathroom. When one of them started playing with my hair and scratching my hands like my hair was a cat toy I lost it had a screaming tantrum flipped my head up only to slam it into the open hair product cupboard and nearly knock myself out. EVERYTHING PISSES ME OFF!!
It's just one of those days. I'm not low, but I everything is going wrong no matter how I try to let it go and move on the next thing I do turns a mess as well.
We are off to lunch... Wish me luck I'm a bit afraid of being in traffic or public, hopefully this will be my turn around for the good? The kids have been great and they go with their Dad tomorrow night so I just want to continue our great weekend. Please - whoever that higher power is out there, watch over us and keep us safe.
#everythingpissesmeoff #greatday #pissedoff #kids #cats #failed
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